OKAAYYYY! Sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo here goes….. I’m having an extremely hard time. I may need some help. Every time I start, I stop again. I eat so much sometimes. It feels like I HAVE to HAVE it! I have so many dreams and goals that require me to be smaller and healthier. It’s not that I don’t believe. I know I can do it. Philippians 4:13 says that “I can do ALL things through Christ who gives me my strength.” I’m paraphrasing. But you get the gist. I just get so “hungry.” I put hungry in quotes to emphasize the fact that it may not be actual hunger. Over the years I learned that I do not know when I’m actually hungry. This is an embarrassing fact but I promised myself that I would be extremely honest and transparent in this blog. Oh yes, by the way. If you still haven’t seen my extremely honest and transparent poem about saying goodbye to food addiction, you may watch it here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KFvvC_UYgyc
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My biggest issue is that food is like a comfort. Food is fun. The taste, the process of chewing, the texture of different foods, that feeling of satisfaction as I get “full” or overly full. All of those things combined are the most joyous parts of my day. I love to eat. But I know that a traveling spoken word artist, singer, etc. does not have room to weight 403 lbs. I will not allow my self inflicted handicap be the death of my dreams. That’s why I keep trying. Often when you’re honest about that fact that you are trying, people around you tend to think you are talking the talk but not walking the walk. That isn’t always the case. I’m clumsy in the are of weight loss. Therefore every time I fall, I get back up. And that is what I encourage anyone to do. Any area in which you are attempting to move forward, make sure that you to your best! Don’t make excuses! Despite several setbacks I refuse to give up. My body is a temple and I must treat it as such. I will not give up. No matter what!
On Another Note:
The Issue
I have been diagnosed with OSA (Obstructive Sleep Apnea.) The sleep study center hooked me up to these machines on two different nights and I had to spend the night at their center. They reported that I stopped breathing on average 27 times per hour in my sleep. Imagine some one putting a pillow over your face for a few seconds 27 times for each hour your asleep. This causes you to wake up each time, even though you don’t realize it. This also causes you to be quite sleepy and fatigued during the day, making even the simplest activities, like driving or talking, difficult. I have fallen asleep at the wheel several times, in addition to the fact that I often fall asleep at very inappropriate and embarrassing times. OSA makes it difficult to concentrate in the daytime, chest pain, mood swings, dry or sore mouth and memory difficulty. I experience all of these things regularly. I have already prayed and praised God for my healing. I know I am healed I won’t go through this much longer!
The Facts
Although many physically fit people are diagnosed with this disease, being overweight definitely doesn’t help. On my diagnosis sheet it made reference to weight loss and talked about how often, when patients lose weight they no longer have to have treatment, no longer experience the symptoms and no longer experience excessive daytime fatigue.
In turn I know now the weight loss is even more serious than before.
Left untreated Obstructive Sleep Apnea can also cause the following (none of which I currently suffer from :
Heart problems
Stroke
High Blood Pressure
Eye Problems
Nocturia
Depression
In order to avoid th
The Machine:
This machine is called a CPAP (Continuous Positive Airway Pressure.)
This machine opens my airways with a continuous stream of air.
Wearing this machine causes me to have to sleep on my back. I slept on my stomach or my side all my life.
I also push my teeth with my tongue in my sleep and bite my mouth at night.
This did not start until I began to wear the mask. I know that when I lose weight all of this will slow down.
Many of theses issues make my day to day life abnormal and difficult but I know that it is imperative that I always move forward. Therefore instead of feeling sorry for myself, I accomplish things and fight through my tiredness. God keeps me from the dangers. I could have died a long time ago from complications with OSA or from falling asleep at the wheel because of OSA. But God is keeping me and I definitely praise Him! However this makes weightloss even more crucial.
Alright peeps! Keep me in your prayers.
Note: This post was not for sympathy, it was for awareness and encouragement. It was to tell a bit of my story. It may have even been a chance to let those of you who don’t struggle with this to: BE GRATEFUL.
And those of you who do.. KEEP YOUR HEAD UP! Literally, because you have to sleep on your back, because of the mask… you know…. aw never mind! You guys are no fun!
This is my setup at night. (minus the hat) (don’t judge me) (it was a hat day ok?)
Love you guys!
-Dassia Rose
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